End of Suffering

My mother died last night.

She was in California with her new husband, tom.

I am in Texas with my father, fred.

She called me three days ago and I did'nt return the call...

Now she's gone

After a year of silence, I did get back in touch with her last month

She learned I am doing well, definitely not doing bad...

But.... this...

I never thought she would die

Nor would I ever acknowledge her sickness'

I truly believed she was invincible

Yet I kept distant because of her martyr nature

She is a magnet for suffering....

She told me when I was little

That she would break the curse's over our Family (karma for you fluffy types)

So that it won't pass to me and my descendants....

From the moment of my Birth and her Resolve

She gained, weight, pain, memories of her abuse by her father, diabetes, seizures, loss of vision, memory.... all this over the years...

She became as Christ whom she so loved

And took unto herself all the madness and destructiveness that run's through our spirits and veins

And last night... after three days of silence from me... lost in depression... she died where she did'nt want to, in a hospital... her cross...

She died alone.. the doctors would not let her husband be with her. Me a thousand miles away...

I did'nt sense anything

My dreams did not reflect this

Tom says my mother would not want me to be shaken by this

My father said god spared me...

but for all my development and "power"... i feel i should have felt my mothers passing...

yet even as I lament... from the distant twilight... in my soul's Eye

there is now Light in the darkness...

and in gentles waves...

I feel her...

and love her...

I just wish...

her two eyes could have seen the material ascension that is about to overtake me

i wish so much that her hands could have held the children I will create in the future...

things where so close...

in a space of a MONTH I shall have a beautiful home large enough for everyone and then some...

the DREAM I held in my heart... so she would not have to struggle anymore...

where she could live in peace with her family and see me fly......

now she's gone....










but I Know

She has Become Christ

Become my Jesus

because she took into herself all the sins of our line

and quite literally opened the gates of Heaven to me and mine

in the space of a week... I shall have quite literally a million or so dollars

resource enough to establish a foundation of FREEDOM for me and mine

i just wish she would see it...

i know her spirit is near...

but it was not the spirit that needed anything

it was her flesh, her limited mind... her hurt heart...

that NEEDED this...

but all the same

I shall establish a shrine

in my heart

and in my home

and pray to my Ancestor

my Mother

the One who gave me my Form

and the mantle of our god

I shall walk with her

and pray live a honorable life

a creative life

and BECOME the God I AM

for those who love me

and who shall come through me

The Age of Darkness has ended for the Levy's

Today, on Dec 07 06

The Golden Age Begins

and for the honor of my soul and she who suffered that I would not have to

The Phoenix Awakes!



P.S. - if anyone comes across a potent channeling crystal worthy of my family altar, give me a heads up and I will purchase it.