Honesty?
Posted on Oct 13th, 2007
by 
Zo
Zo
Aligning what one feels with what one says and does is more difficult than it seems...
Right now I am craving to go back into the military....
But when I was in the military I fought tooth and nail to break free...
I say I want freedom... but I do nothing with my freedom...
I am endlessly frozen......
Because the reality is I want to be told what to do
I want to be swept away.....
Yet if anything does come to sweep me away... I will fight it to the death!
What Insanity!
Unfortunately for various reasons the military is not an option to me.
I continue to hide in my anti-social hermetic ice...
........ I miss... people.... I miss travel.....
I want to throw my body and soul into the fray and see how I stack up....
but i am held in self doubt
what do I do?
where do I go?
I have lots of ideas but none of them are sparking the gasoline of my potential...
I AM a licensed massage therapist who could work his way toward being a physical therapist
but my heart/mind is enchanted with the idea of being a mixed martial arts fighter...
I need something to pull me out of myself.......
.........damn.........
Right now I am craving to go back into the military....
But when I was in the military I fought tooth and nail to break free...
I say I want freedom... but I do nothing with my freedom...
I am endlessly frozen......
Because the reality is I want to be told what to do
I want to be swept away.....
Yet if anything does come to sweep me away... I will fight it to the death!
What Insanity!
Unfortunately for various reasons the military is not an option to me.
I continue to hide in my anti-social hermetic ice...
........ I miss... people.... I miss travel.....
I want to throw my body and soul into the fray and see how I stack up....
but i am held in self doubt
what do I do?
where do I go?
I have lots of ideas but none of them are sparking the gasoline of my potential...
I AM a licensed massage therapist who could work his way toward being a physical therapist
but my heart/mind is enchanted with the idea of being a mixed martial arts fighter...
I need something to pull me out of myself.......
.........damn.........
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July 2008 
Hi Zo
Sounds like a difficult situation…
Have you heard of dynamic meditation? Reading this It cam eot me that this might be something that could help you get that energy moving.
It was designed from Osho, it is a little nuts. But it really helped me on my journey.
If you want more info search on osho.com
Blessings and Love
Shanti
This is called transition…you are suffering just as you should. Transition is hard, because you learn to turn what stops you into what fuels you. I send loving energy your way…and just know, the path that you are now on is one we all must travel…it's just most people give up and stop trying to figure it all out. You won't because you are a warrior of the light…theres no stopping the light. Be well friend!