letter
Posted on Nov 1st, 2007
by 
Zo
Zo
a letter i wrote to my dear mahate that i will share with all of you.....
Thank you sweet pea:)
I got my first massage job today.
I am living in san antonio, TX and now working at massage envy.
So far it is a positive atmosphere with good people.
I am looking forward to the fruits of labor.
Things have smoothed out with my friend tiffany...
But my feelings have strengthened with wearing an emerald pendant and discovering the potent practice of "mudras"
Mudras have really strengthened my body, energy, and esp mind! My depression is much much weaker thanks to this practice.
I have made it a habit of eating a large plate of broccoli and carrots everyday
then later follow it up with a big plate of peaches and berries!
and everyday i have organic milk with whey protein
a long way from my hedonistic food habits of my past
it was my will to strengthen myself to be a strong soul and fighter that lead me down the healthy path
for what good is cultivating our soul and building a home if one cannot defend it? lol
thank you for your presence
i would love to hear about your life
i understand it is not likely that the doors of your life and it's details will swing wide open after all these years
but i would appreciate it... the chance to vibe, flow with your offerings
I admit it is true no one can forsake us but ourselves...
this last dark night of the soul felt like every regret and darkness of my dead mother was placed upon me
i felt her helpless impotency toward herself and life
but luckily the universe rescued me
by the work of my hands in massage
and the signs/seals of my hands
suddenly things are looking up
because i am looking up
and then i feel
even if my dear cherished ones are far
and we rarely speak
even then i should cherish the physical memory and spiritual reality of our goodness
and not obscure it with dark clouds of frustration, anger, and depression
it is always dark somewhere
it is always light somewhere
in the sky
and in my heart
when emotions learn to move
they can chase the day
with hope
compassion
and love
love you
my first
my compassionate initiator
who held a raging god
before he was birthed
and still gaze upon him
as he slips from the iron womb of his own gripping fear
into the brilliant existence of actuality
to be beheld by all
and to hold all
that are sent to him
by the air
water
and fires of creative longing
I got my first massage job today.
I am living in san antonio, TX and now working at massage envy.
So far it is a positive atmosphere with good people.
I am looking forward to the fruits of labor.
Things have smoothed out with my friend tiffany...
But my feelings have strengthened with wearing an emerald pendant and discovering the potent practice of "mudras"
Mudras have really strengthened my body, energy, and esp mind! My depression is much much weaker thanks to this practice.
I have made it a habit of eating a large plate of broccoli and carrots everyday
then later follow it up with a big plate of peaches and berries!
and everyday i have organic milk with whey protein
a long way from my hedonistic food habits of my past
it was my will to strengthen myself to be a strong soul and fighter that lead me down the healthy path
for what good is cultivating our soul and building a home if one cannot defend it? lol
thank you for your presence
i would love to hear about your life
i understand it is not likely that the doors of your life and it's details will swing wide open after all these years
but i would appreciate it... the chance to vibe, flow with your offerings
I admit it is true no one can forsake us but ourselves...
this last dark night of the soul felt like every regret and darkness of my dead mother was placed upon me
i felt her helpless impotency toward herself and life
but luckily the universe rescued me
by the work of my hands in massage
and the signs/seals of my hands
suddenly things are looking up
because i am looking up
and then i feel
even if my dear cherished ones are far
and we rarely speak
even then i should cherish the physical memory and spiritual reality of our goodness
and not obscure it with dark clouds of frustration, anger, and depression
it is always dark somewhere
it is always light somewhere
in the sky
and in my heart
when emotions learn to move
they can chase the day
with hope
compassion
and love
love you
my first
my compassionate initiator
who held a raging god
before he was birthed
and still gaze upon him
as he slips from the iron womb of his own gripping fear
into the brilliant existence of actuality
to be beheld by all
and to hold all
that are sent to him
by the air
water
and fires of creative longing
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passing on the resolve to love
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