Help!
Posted on Dec 17th, 2007
by 
Zo
Zo
This has been going on for a month....
But this week... I got my first driving ticket
Everytime i close my eyes I dream of my dead mother... being selfish and doing bad witchcraft... trying to make me drink black blood....
Dreamed of my beloved cat's side's spilling out
Buisness has been terrible
Lost my only physical friend cause of a stupid comment I said
Smashed my Ipod screen by accedent (I am ultra careful with my electronics...)
My solar plexus energy center feels introverted
My emotions range from lonely, desperate, to darker shades of the two
I feel cursed
HELP! Pray to whatever compassionate beings that exist... cause they seem not to hear me..... please lift this darkness from my life.................
I don't know what to do
I want to think this darkness is a classic "your not where your supposed to be" signs...
But I don't have any idea where to go or the finances to get there....
I did dream of being a massage therapist in a world-class resort on some island... but it was owned by a russian crime billionaire... whom i served for a long time... but ultimately erased him and all his men when i had enough of living in someone else's world.
.............. mercy.
But this week... I got my first driving ticket
Everytime i close my eyes I dream of my dead mother... being selfish and doing bad witchcraft... trying to make me drink black blood....
Dreamed of my beloved cat's side's spilling out
Buisness has been terrible
Lost my only physical friend cause of a stupid comment I said
Smashed my Ipod screen by accedent (I am ultra careful with my electronics...)
My solar plexus energy center feels introverted
My emotions range from lonely, desperate, to darker shades of the two
I feel cursed
HELP! Pray to whatever compassionate beings that exist... cause they seem not to hear me..... please lift this darkness from my life.................
I don't know what to do
I want to think this darkness is a classic "your not where your supposed to be" signs...
But I don't have any idea where to go or the finances to get there....
I did dream of being a massage therapist in a world-class resort on some island... but it was owned by a russian crime billionaire... whom i served for a long time... but ultimately erased him and all his men when i had enough of living in someone else's world.
.............. mercy.
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July 2008 
Mercy Indeed my friend. This is another challenge for you to stand your ground about who you are. Don't want to live between the shadows of the wallls of your troubles…with just bits of sunshine every few days? Then build a ladder, climb the wall, dig a tunnell…but get moving. This is just an obstacle to what you really want….be Not re-active to your situation but responsive to your inner feelings. Go to your friend, say you reacted badly, say you are sorry, say you have grown and learned. Be Pro-active instead of re-active and the challenges will become easier to see your way through, (not easier to accomplish mind you, but easier to see and deal with) around and above. You can do this, because I have enough faith in you for the both of us. Now…get to it. Just keep swimming.